NIN

Wow... it is amazing what a song can bring back. Once again reminiscing...

I used to go dancing at a place in Downtown SD called Soma. It was all dark inside and we liked it that way. I got all hoochied up with my big hair, dark makeup, short tight skirts and Doc's. We would usually get REALLY drunk in the parking lot before we went in. We would dance and sweat, dance and sweat, dance and drink, drink and dance.

It was so much fun.

In between the dancing, drinking and sweating, we would venture downstairs to listen to the live bands play. I recall watching a band where the lead singer/guitarist was nude under his guitar. Yep.. nude. I saw so many great bands there... local bands that went on to become something more.

I was 16 and 17 at the time.

Afterwards, we would head into HillCrest and have coffee at Soho. We would sit and laugh and talk and enjoy the time together. We all took rocks and wrote Soho in red nailpolish on them. I still have mine.

When we weren't going out to dance and have coffee, we stayed at one of the other girl's apartments for the night. We watched movies, drank, danced, had fun, and crashed all together on the floor. We held hands and kissed as friends. We were happy. It was a necessary escape for me from my dreadful existance at home. Thank everything that is holy that my mom was too wrapped up in her own bullshit to pay attention to what I was doing.

All of that changed eventually. My friends weren't satisfied with drinking and started trying other things. I never knew. They got into crystal, X, acid and went to raves and partied way harder than I was willing to do. I pulled away from them. I was depressed. Alienated. Alone once again. Back to being in the middle of my mom's bullshit. I met Jason right in the middle of all of that. Thank everything that is holy once again.

One of my long lost friends found me on MySpace. His wife is having a baby this month. I couldn't be happier for them. I love listening to this music as it is such a reminder of the fun times I had when I was younger. Rock on peeps...

Another day, another dollar...

Welp, so far so decent. Hub's new job is going well so far. He is at a seminar today to get his Notary. Kiddo #1 and I are off to Sacramento to visit my family for a week. I am so excited. Today is her bday and we are taking her first plane ride, where all of the family will be waiting for a surprise bday party and she has NO IDEA AT ALL. She knows we are going "somewhere". We leave in 20 minutes! Am I good or am I good???

Things have been turning up here. Not feeling so desperate right now. Bills are getting paid (well.. not all by us.. lol)... and in general we are feeling a bit more relaxed. Thank gawd.

Hugz peeps... I will be back in a week!